i don’t even feel real anymore.
i’m not truly experiencing the emotions i should be experiencing, considering the situation i’m in and all the crap that’s gone on recently. i just don’t feel anything. like last time, it’s like i’m numb from the hurting. but i’m happy this time. while i’m numb. and that is something i’ve never heard of or have obviously ever experienced. so, i don’t know if it’s good or not. but i do rather enjoy it. while it’s here. maybe it’ll stay a while.







